I had my first run in a long time last night. I wanted to test out my knee. I ran 1.75 miles and I ran it pretty hard, at least for me, maybe I shouldn’t have, and I made it about a block from home before I started feeling tightness in my knee.
I ran at a sub 9:00/mile pace. When I run with my heart rate monitor I average about 11:30’s or so if I stay in zone 2. So I was running pretty hard. I ran the entire way, and I still had a lot left in the tank. That really surprised me because I did a walk jog thing the other day on the same path, and I was winded really quickly. I thought that I had lost a ton of fitness, but I guess I must have just had an off day.
This run, although better than I have done in weeks, was discouraging. I don’t understand what is happening with my knee. This morning it looks a little puffy, but other than that it feels ok. Sometimes it feels like I am never going to be able to run again. I contemplated giving it up this morning. It’s really discouraging. I want to be back where I was before I was hurt. I was so excited to be running, now it just sucks that I can’t.